I think I’ve been here for four weeks already and we always hear that it’s always hard to start something, to be in a new place and to start a new life. The beginnings will challenge your physical but it’s your mental, especially. Yes, those unfamiliar faces, tiring activities, strange places and new routines. The worst damn thing is homesick because there’s no medicine to that. You had no choice but to fit in, to put aside your overthinking thoughts and worries, right? I promise you this because I just went through it; after that harsh storm and horrible hurricane you went through, you’ll feel like you’re completely in a new world and the special thing is, you start seeing things differently — it means you’re growing. Sweet things will slowly follow after those harships. Don’t give up, you’re with me my friend. Enjoy the little things in life instead of highlighting what doesn’t complete you. Of couse your past life was better but remember how you felt earlier about it? You didn’t like it as well, right? Acknowledge people who smiled at you, acknowledge people who hurt you because everyone that showed up in your life, they came for a reason and that’s the thing you have to figure out. Life can be great sometimes although most times, it’s painful.
I have this feeling, I always do. I hurt people before and sometimes I don’t know if people would be able to forgive me but this feeling of guiltiness, once in a while it makes me sad and broken. So to you, in case you’re reading this and in case I used to hurt you intentionally or unintentionally, I’m sorry.